It is a new year and I have started it limping. The
limping is so bad that I am walking like i Ntsayiza (Intsayiza ayo
bodi ku boda umlenze) because the leg in pain gets left far behind when I
take a step forward.
But it is not the limping that worries me it is the reason for my limping. I
feel that my body has failed me. How can such a flimsy thing do this to ME?
Does this know who I am. I am a 1.82 metre tall, 100kg giant.
The limping has left me asking myself why have I gone so
soft. Has the glittering light of the City of Gold taken my
masculinity?
While hanging my laundry over the weekend, a thorn stabbed me in
the foot. The pain that followed is beyond my imagination. I knelled
expecting to find my flesh torn apart and blood pumping out.
To my surprise, it was something small.For something that small it sure could hurt. I am talking about the pain
that move from your toes to your brain in a matter of seconds. It was
worse than labour pains. It was hell.
This hell of a pain came from a small thorn that fell of some
flowery tree like plant. How can this paralyse me with pain.
I am used to much greater pain. When I was a boy I used to hunt.
I used to step on these flowery thorns with easy barefoot. Thorns from a
big trees did not deter me from catching wild animals or
running away from a swarm of bees.
I used to crush them rub my feet against the stony road and continue with my
journey.
Has the limping made me a wimp? Can I blame it on age, is it the
change of life style or is the accumulation of the little cents I get
from the capitalists?
Kalipile Mgevane blamed it on the diet. "